"X"

I'm lost.

Speechless.

Why must you hate me so much?

Why do you even hate me so much?

What did I do to you?

Why do you always treat me like junk?

You blast out at me

You were never patient with me

You make fun of me

You mock at me

You scold vulgarities at me

You're insensitive to what I believe in

And yet...I try my best to treat you well.

I offer to go an extra mile to help make this friendship work

I do what I can to help

But still...

I know I'm not smart

I know I dint get a place in Uni

But thats why I have to work hard...

Cuz if I don't, my results will be worse

I work so hard because I dont want to lose this dream

Well then, this is who I am.

I'm sorry if u felt im the stupidist guy ever.

I'm sorry if my "slow understanding" made u impatient

I'm sorry for whatever you felt I was wrong.

God...why?

Perhaps many of you thought.."ay...I thought Samuel was doing well? He seems to be smiling all the time..enjoying his flights....etc"

Sometimes sacrifices have to be made to achieve your dream. In my case, I lost love, someone to talk to, and real friends. Jesus, feel my void. Please.