Back in Singapore Part 2

1st Jan

It was a day when we finally decided to seat down and have a serious talk about us. After so long, it was hard to make critical decisions like these but we finally did and expressed our desires and plans for the future. I stated mine and I wanted to make sure that you knew what you were in for (NOT a business deal k..far more important than tt!). I asked about ur dreams..and honestly, it was my first time hearing it, n was really touched by the way u opened up to me. 1.5yrs may sound a short period, but indeed it is a long and draggy one when all we look for is the end of the 1.5yrs. And for yr info, i still don like tom yam. Thai food was nv my cup of tea, but to see that smile of urs, it was worth both the spiced up puffy lips and every cent.

2nd Jan

An awesome time of cantonese food with a.nancy and you. A.Nancy, thank you very much! i've always been blessed by ur presence and definitely by ur "airport ministry". You nv know how touched i am to always see u at the airport. I'm truly ministered. Night, i went to ur place for dinner. The infamous Nor Hiang! But the delicacy definitely included the aritificial but "jing jing you wei" de Shark Fin ! I'm very blessed to know u and ur family. Ur dad, mum (the really good cook) and the 2 monkeys...well, thank you for being such a blessing to my life.

3rd Jan

Detonate service was D service man. What a change to detonate. Its like...we went through the long but hard process of no music...to really just worship and pray without distraction. And after so many months...we finally got our strings together and just let it go! Indeed it was not the worship that changed detonate, but the attitude of all the youths who chose to set things right. Presence before performance. =) Peach Garden. It was a dinner I wanted u nv to forget. Since day 1 of knowing you, i've always known of ur liking for soups, and good food. But u were v.particular about soups, and always wanting it hot and steamy. Well, bringing u to peach garden was my privilege. The moment u had tt spoonful of soup in ur mouth, I was all pumped with enthusiasm to see that smile on ur face. And when it finally appeared, wad a joy. Simply wad a joy. Thanks for allowing me to bless you.

5th Jan

A busy day for me. Tml is the day i dun wanna look forward to but well, i had to. Thus, getting busy with all the administration and nitty bitties. Night was spent in church. After so many yrs, I've decided to come for this hokkien prayer meeting. Of all the ministries, i can nv forget this. Without the hokkien ministry, I wld nv have started serving in the worship ministry. They created an avenue for me to serve and develop my skills and I did. I've had many lessons done the hard way in terms of music playing and worship in this ministry. But as I continue to serve more and more in the church...I started to compromise and allowed my schedules to limit me frm playing for the hokkien. I wanna apologise to this ministry as I wldn't be who I am had it not been for u. This prayer meeting showed me how much I meant to u. I came...supposedly to play the drums if it was available, but since i saw Ivy ald playing and i was kinda on the dot for the service to start, i decided to just seat in. The worship was wonderful even though my chinese wasn't good but somehow i understood here and there. After, I joined the men for prayer. Man, it was such a joy. Hearing all the uncles actually sharing bout their lives...and how to take care of each other cuz of their age..etc. They were really funny! They prayed for me for my career as well as my journey back to France. You know wad? The uncle who was praying for me, prayed for me in hokkien + his limited but seriously cute english! He prayed something like " Samuel di xiong...take exam ah...pass good good!" haha! Really joyful prayer. Right after, came the moment i wished i nv left. I was called out to the front to be prayed for. Well, i started to walk up the aisle to the pulpit..but midway, everyone was trying to reach out and shake my hand and bless me...they prayed, den God moved. Right after "Amen"....they started singing.."zhu fu ni...zhu fu ni! " and reached out their hands towards me...I walked down the aisle not knowing that they were singing "God bless you God bless you" to me..till i reached the end and turned ard. Everyone had their hands raised toward me and singing and some even crying! I tell u...my legs went wobbly and my heart went jelly. My mum came to me...
she told me to go to all of them and give them a hug..." But i cldn't. my heart was just so touched and ministered that i cld hardly moved. I held on to mum as tears of joy flowed and flowed. In the end...I managed to walk to the front...and shake their hands and hugged them. Many of them took care of me since I was v.young in Primary sch..caring for me since the Pioneer opening of the Hokkien Ministry. One of the aunties, cried and hugged me and told me to take care of myself. Even right now as I type this entry, I can remember that image of her looking at me in her eyes...I love you auntie. I will take care of myself. You too k?

The meeting ended...off I went to the car...and it was perhaps one of the most silent drives ever. We had a great supper at Thomson, still remembering me eating Ban Mian and you and mum having chicken rice. But after, the drive...both of us were silent as we both dint want this day to come. But once again, thanx for allowing me to bless you as you have to me.

6th Jan

Kuishinbo. the surprised payment. But i was glad to be able to peel prawns for u. =) Leaving on a Jet plane. Leaving this time was not as hard as the first, but nevertheless, still hard. Thanks to all who came to send me off. I know late nights are nv good but all of u sacrificed it for me. To my dad, thanx for bearing with my demands and administration. I love you so much. i still wanna grow up to be like you. Mummy, your love has spread beyond what i cld imagine. Thanks for showing me that LOVE is the greatest of all things. Jie, it was definitely one of the best coincidences to come back to spore with u at almost the same time. It was great to finally see u again. i had a tremendous time in australia with u. U have always been my music mentor. Thanks for being a role model in my life and someone whom i can rely on. I love you jie. It was hard leaving not knowing when i can see you again. But i sure do hope i can see u soon. Perhaps u can come over? Now...finally, I walked in...and once you were gone from my view...I felt this assurance tt u'll be safe. But looking forward, its a long 1 yr + to go. I dunno when i'll be back again, but i'm glad we made a decision. =) The adventure....resumes...