A Time of Refreshing

A Time of Refreshing

In my morning devotion with God today, I read Proverbs 15. I just find God's word so inspiring...in v32, it says..."He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds correction gains understanding...(v33) The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and humility comes before honor."

He who is willing to change...(whoever heeds correction) and is disciplined enough, will be able to do so. If there's something in your life that is not right, and you wanna make it right...you fear you'll not be able to make that change, or u feel that change is too much of your sacrifice...look no further. Because if you're determined to change, you're willing to change and disciplined enough to change...+ you've asked God to help you and guide you to get back to the right path...it will be done. All you need is put your faith and trust in God, help yourself and he'll do the rest.

This week, I wld say I had a pretty stressed but still manageable week. But its also been a painful week. I admit, I miss church so much, the fellowship, the worship. Especially the worship. When I was still back in S'pore, I encourage others to fix their eyes on Jesus, and that worship is a lifestyle and not just a Sunday thing. But oh how much this trip has taught me. I struggled. When my lifestyle and plans changed, when I cldn't find a way to get a church, when I could not bring a musical instrument and worship as I wld have liked...I simply struggled.

Worship is a lifestyle. However, I was still shy about it...when I started worshipping, I worshipped with my whole heart and sang like never before in the bathroom, but once I came out, I seemed like a different person, scared to worship in public, scared that others might be offended and my friendships wld be affected.

Especially this week. So painful when my faith was tested quite a no. of times. I can sense ppl having set barriers against me for what I believed in. I don't drink with them, not because I don't like them (certainly not!), but its just my personal conviction. They called me a "God person", others distanced themselves frm me when e religion topic comes in...there was even an instant a comment was made..."You're such a God person...u wun understand!" I feel so sad and broken inside, but nevertheless I know I've a God who is greater than all these prbs.

I seek forgiveness God, I repent that I may have done things that I was not supposed to do, I repent that I once was ashamed of the gospel, but Lord, I declare this an end to it. I will NOT be ashamed of who you are, I will NOT stop worshipping you in public, and I will NOT live a life that’s full of lies and deception. For I am yours and only yours. Lord, I ask that you LEAD my life, TAKE CONTROL of my mind and grant me a HEART OF WORSHIP and a HEART for the LOSS SOULS...I seek you Lord, change my life and make me whole again.

To fellow brothers and sisters back in Singapore, I thank you for forgiving me and continuing keeping me in prayer. I thank you for without your prayers, I wld have tumbled under the pressures here. Lessons learnt here my frens...in church things may all be smooth sailing, but when u get out dere, when you're all alone to stand up for what you believe in...will you be standing firm? If you do, will you be willing to go through the pains...e mockings ...e gossips...just for what you believe in?

God is smiling and watches over you. Proverbs 15:3 "The eyes of the Lord are everywhere, keeping watch on the wicked and the good."

Smile my fren. =)

You know, as a pilot trainee with a dream of becoming a fighter pilot...Lord, I commit myself to you. Whether I make it or not, all I ask is that it is according to YOUR WILL, not mine. And even if I do make it, that I'll be reminded that it'll only be temporal, for my eternal vocation is a proud soldier of the Lord's army. v33, "The fear of the Lord teaches a man wisdom, and HUMILITY COMES BEFORE HONOR." Lord, I ask that you'll continually teach me to be humble.

Thank you Lord. Thank you Dad.